Let go

Sometimes,
loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with them.
I gave myself some time to try,
but all i see is defeat up ahead.
I really hope we could be together,
but seeing how things work now,
i believe its impossible.

You need time,
but i dun have long.
As time passes by,
i can feel myself falling into pieces again.
Not because i'm desperate,
but seriously all the waiting is making me very weak.

I'm sorry

all or nothing

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it

Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never

another setback.

Totally missed that penalty shot.
Lucky my keeper managed to save the other shot,
and we're through to the next game for the last 16.

Current goals:
-Pick myself up from this penalty phobia
-Get into polite team
-Build up my fitness
-200 push-ups per day(almost there)

And i have a confession to make.
I still miss you dearly,
hoping to see your sweet smile everyday.
You're gone and i have to live with it.

God,
hope you answer my daily prayers,
watching over them,
giving them the strength to fight and live on.
Life ain't bad,
its we who have the power to decide whether is it good or bad.

you're still the missing piece in me.

words of heart

Recent unexpected turns of events made me realised,
in life,
you will meet lots of ppl,
most will eventually become friends of yours.
However,
not all friendship last forever,
some lost to reasons caused by both parties,
others lost due to uncontrollable events.
I'm glad that i made many friends along the way,
and sad for those that I've lost.
Nothing last forever,
so I think it ain't wise to rekindle those lost cause i had.
What ended should be left ended,
as it will never be the same as before.
Leaving them as sweet memories will be the best move.

I'm grateful to those who stick with me for these few months,
those guys and ladies who gave me the best offered decisions to make.

Especially you Sam.
Those emoing conversations we shared,
kinda bring back sweet yet angering memories.

Revival

Maybe now is not the right time,
u gave me signs along the way.
Maybe lord its all in your timing,
only when its the right time.

Give me the strength to be like him.

He's small
BUT
fast
strong
reliable.

Ashley Cole.


and have sucha beautiful wife. LOL

flashback.

Remember when we took the SPI tour you told me you love,
but now that you're fine,
you changed your mind,
I'm lost for words.
Remember the night we celebrated my birthday,
that was the night,
which make me decide,
to love you for life.

girls.

One might be bitching with u how bad the other is,
but u never know they are just using you as a dummy for ranting.
When you are looking for either one of them,
they ain't there for you,
full of excuses or worst,
not even a single reply
And you know what?
They are actually talking to each other,
bitching bout you?
or some other girls out there?

you'll never know.
thats why there no such thing as,
girls and guys becoming good friends.

you're my only tattoo.

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

What about us?

What about everything we've been through?

you know I never wanted to hurt you

What am I supposed to do?

I'll miss you

Why do you have to go?

I'm trying to understand

but I want you to stay

NOTHING,

After what happened today,
felt all this while,
I'm nothing but a servant to you.

I'm like your backup plan,
always last priority.
Whenever your friends turn you down,
you come to me thinking I will most probably be there for you.

what's up in your mind always seem to be the question,
you seems so swingy.
sigh

I dun need to make myself clear anymore.
Hope you have an enjoyable 19th birthday on friday.

randomness

Thanks for the gifts.
Chocolate from Sam,
polo tee from Jason.

For the first time,
pulled my hamstring today.
Lesson learned,
always stretch before exercising.

Maybe they were right about you.

Having you in my arms,
resting your head on my shoulder.
These all seem so far away.

Meat cravings.

DAMN!
Chicken, Pork,
Lamb, Beef.
I'm craving for some big juicy steaks.

Well life been boring.
Staying home all day tuning in to 'Supernatural'.
The Winchesters Bros.

Wish life was like that them.
Roaming around States.
Not just locking up at home only.

changing

If you want peace, prepare for war.

giddyness.

My mind been floating for the past few days,
feeling so giddy.
Hope its nothing serious,
haha.

Will always keep this in my heart:
"my intelligence needs little innovation"

When will i ever stand on my feet again?

lesson learnt.

In order to be a better person,
one must watch their:
Words
Actions
Thoughts
Characters
Heart

I guess i have not been doing soon,
thats why i'm losing everything.
Lost my love.
Losing my communication with my parents.
Losing my health.
Lost lots of cash.
Chinese New Year have not been good.

God,
what do you have in plan for me?
I'm becoming a loser.

Distance

My favourite color is red too,
and we can share a red Honda Fit together in future.

凌晨的飞机
随歌忐忑飞行
从相机里面正视着回忆
背景是层影
我哪里都不想擦去
到哪里痛楚计算清
怕遗憾拖远
易碎的情绪我收听

想你在一起
我却身不由己
你每次伤心 我每次缺席
遥远的距离
我以为我们的爱情
誓言里还会有转机
没想到陌生机场
写下结局
各自的转机

我放不过我自己
转一圈回到了原地
眼泪是一种提醒
我很爱你
让一切归零

我放不过我自己
仍相信爱会有奇迹
人群中握得到你
我抱着你
我们的爱情
还未完待续

想你在一起
我却身不由己
你每次伤心
我每次缺席
遥远的距离
我以为我们的爱情
誓言里还会有转机
没想到陌生机场
写下结局
各自的转机

我放不过我自己
转一圈回到了原地
眼泪是一种提醒
我很爱你
让一切归零

我放不过我自己
仍相信爱会有奇迹
人群中我正逃离
我抱着你
我们的爱情
还未完待续(我放不过我自己)

转一圈回到了原地
眼泪是一种提醒
我很爱你
让一切归零

我放不过我自己
仍相信爱会有奇迹
寻找我们的转机
我抱着你
我们的爱情
还未完待续(我放不过我自己)

眼泪是一种提醒
让我们一起回忆 我们的爱情
我放不过我自己 眼泪是一种提醒
我们的 我们的 我们的爱爱爱爱
我放不过我自己 眼泪是一种提醒
让我们一起回忆 我们的爱情
我放不过我自己 眼泪是一种提醒
我们的 我们的 我们的爱爱爱爱

just so you know

The first glance we had,
the heat exhaustion we suffered during S&W,
the shy and quick chats we shared,
all seems so far away now.

The outings we went,
those long and exciting trips to JBP,
those ice creams we had,
mos burgers we ate.
pinching, poking or physical tortures we gave each other.
Seems fun to 1, but torturous to the other.

Those bad times we went through,
crazy yellings on the phone,
banging of tables and unstoppable calls.
seems to be haunting us non-stop.

Those cuddles we had,
kisses we gave,
touches we shared.
How i wished we have another day,
but it seems our time together is numbered.

I can't help it and think,
why do u always think our future would be an end,
but not a better and stronger bond between us.

You know how much you mean to me,
but,
How much am i to you?

its sweet to have a long relationship.
And maybe marry your childhood sweetheart.
haha.

Roller Coaster

Mid-Five,
Cloud-Nine,
Ground-Zero.

That's how it goes.
Thrilling exciting & scary.

Who Knew

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
That's right

If someone said three years from now, you'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out cause they're all wrong
who knew

I wish I could touch you again
I'd give anything

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you, what happened

That last kiss
I'll cherish until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew

& i still do.

I'm sorry for causing you so much disturbance ever since we met.
Every little seconds with you are so sweet and enjoyable.
But we both know the feeling ain't strong anymore.
Right now,
I just wanna cherish every little moment with you till the day we're over.