Fed-up with life.

Life is a living hell at home.
It's truly sick staying home facing with all of you.
You parents think my life is all about study la,
emotionally dead isit?
fucked up thinking of yours gotta changed,
although its right.
Both you been teenagers before,
still can say u never did anything bad to your parents before.
you were a fucking gangster in the past,
be glad i'm unlike you.
Both of you are always like that,
been 18 years under both of you,
still thinks i'm a 5 year old kid.
Seeing both of you worrying so much bout me going out late at night,
u are fucking kidding me.
Dun tell others that u both served the army,
worry so much,
how can our citizens rely on soldiers like you to protect our country?

And my mum thinks i'm a fucking casanova.
Talking with friends on the phone means i'm toying around with girls ar?
Go out means must be with girls only?
Fuck man,
thanks for having sucha impression on your only son,
appreciate it very much.

sometimes i really wonder,
did you adopted me?
Or am i really your flesh & bones?

Although i dun seems to be studying all the time,
i do care.
I dun blame both of you about the results i had,
Yea you can blame me,
but stop thinking i can't change.

Its about being practical,
my present GPA can't possibly get me into any local Uni.
Why the fuck i still squeeze my brain juice dry and study every moment?
I'm no nerd, geek or douchebag.

I'm still heartbroken man,
after all the good and bad times.
You still stand a chance,
make full use of it.
Dun let your parents down.

Running low on cash,
Common tests coming up.

Why do bad stuffs come all together?

Guess have to clear CTs first.
Parents never change,
dun really need to care bout them.

done updating.

First Prac!

Had my first driving pract today!
It was quite boring in the beginning,
simple(stupid) knowledge of the car,
nearly dozed off,
haha.
The excitement came when its my turn to touch the wheel.
The feeling of the passenger seat and driver seat,
totally fucking different,
the car seems so big on sia,
den 20km/h suddenly seem so fast.

One fucking bad point bout manual car,
fucking clutch.
its seems so small,
yet it can inflict so much torture to a human leg.

Having prac again tmr!
nervously anticipating it.
haha.

Overnight mac seems like a killer,
still tired cos of it,
haha.

Get well soon!
Pain is there to make yourself stronger!

First Prac!\

Gutu on my hair!

20/11/08
Went out with YX for the first time,
haha.
Finally found someone who mumbles like me,
haha.
Someone's is falling in love,
follow ur heart girl,
or u can let time show you the results.
End up at auntie lim's house after sending YX home.
it was mother lim's birthday,
sucha nice bd cake u got,
haha.
Played with 乐乐,
damn horny bitch sia,
lol.

21/11/08
Thought i was having sucha bad day,
Was on high spirits when my mum gave me $200 to top up my bbdc account,
fucking lost my EZ-link.
Spoilt my day totally sia.
$21 just fly past so easily,
such good timing.
My pay for tmr used to cover this loss liao.

Always believe,
rainbow after a thunderstorm.
Met chel for dinner,
finally had our long-planned outing successfully.
Felt kinda awkward at the beginning,
but slowly swing into the mood liao.
Die liao la,
u made me found out there's really gutu in my hair,
haha.
I'm sorry for my response just now,
kinda retarded recently.
Really need to learn from u to sleep early.

Fico after that,
Headed for the coffeeshop with jason and mario.
Somehow we are becoming uncles liao,
even though we meet up quite often,
we still have lots to talk about.
haha.

Enjoy ur camp chel!
Have fun with bin bin!
Yawn~
bedtime for me liao.
nights!

Boring day.

Went to Sam's place yet again after sch.
That fucker, skipped both IS class and his physiotheraphy.
haha.
Played fifa there, exchanged sad stories with one another.

Chang is out of hospital,
everything will be fine.
2 weeks will fly pass very fast.
if u need psp games,
i have loads of them.
haha.

Lost. (pardon my moodyness)

leave it alone, take a detour.

GOD GOD GOD, you are hell right making my life miserable now.
Let me know that this is just a test of my strength,
dun let this feeling prolong.
Well maybe its time to take a detour.
Stop all the pestering stuffs.
i knew u lied to me.

Football seems to be the best option now.
My passion, hah!
I gave up lots of opportunities in the past,
regretting all those rejections i made.

Maybe afterall,
i'm the second best choice.
i dun blame u for that,
i'm damn right a lousy bf.
haha.

My name.

The boy's name Adelard \a-dela-rd, ad(e)-lard\ is a variant of Adalhard (Old German) and Allard (Old English), and the meaning of Adelard is "noble strength; noble and brave".

Till the time is right.

Just wanna say a big thank you for letting me spent almost the whole week with you.
I guess u're kinda getting bored of my presence again.
Time to back off this type round,
i wanna say sorry for my reaction on the bus just now.
I admit i'm kinda heartbroken & sad.
haha,
but i'll be fine.

I'll be there if you need me.
But for the time being,
just wanna be better in time.

It's no longer home.

Been returning home late at night recently.
Not that i'm mixing with bad company or what.
There's no point staying at home,
i tried being nice,
all i get is being the scapegoat.

What's the fucking problem with my family?
Doesn't Christ teach you to be harmonious with everyone?
Maybe staying out all these nights is right.

Where's are you when i really needed you?
I feel so lost now.