Dejections

Firstly, i regretted leaving my mates early just now.
Should have just stayed on,
and worst of all,
it was just to meet a 'female' friend to go home together.

Sammy,
I'm sorry,
i always say you're hoes before bros,
but in reality,
I'm just pot calling the kettle black.

Thank you for being there always,
Thank you for taking your precious time off to watch me play,
Thank you for giving those useful advices for improvement of my game,
Thank you for bearing with me whenever i lost control of my mouth,
You're one of the few great memories to bring back from poly days.

Oh God,
sometimes i wonder why did you create Eve as Adam's companion on Earth?
I've been very vulnerable,
please grant me the courage and strength to overcome this problem of mine.


Thank you lord that i'm still holding on to myself and not fallen to pieces.

Let go

Sometimes,
loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with them.
I gave myself some time to try,
but all i see is defeat up ahead.
I really hope we could be together,
but seeing how things work now,
i believe its impossible.

You need time,
but i dun have long.
As time passes by,
i can feel myself falling into pieces again.
Not because i'm desperate,
but seriously all the waiting is making me very weak.

I'm sorry

all or nothing

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it

Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never

another setback.

Totally missed that penalty shot.
Lucky my keeper managed to save the other shot,
and we're through to the next game for the last 16.

Current goals:
-Pick myself up from this penalty phobia
-Get into polite team
-Build up my fitness
-200 push-ups per day(almost there)

And i have a confession to make.
I still miss you dearly,
hoping to see your sweet smile everyday.
You're gone and i have to live with it.

God,
hope you answer my daily prayers,
watching over them,
giving them the strength to fight and live on.
Life ain't bad,
its we who have the power to decide whether is it good or bad.

you're still the missing piece in me.

words of heart

Recent unexpected turns of events made me realised,
in life,
you will meet lots of ppl,
most will eventually become friends of yours.
However,
not all friendship last forever,
some lost to reasons caused by both parties,
others lost due to uncontrollable events.
I'm glad that i made many friends along the way,
and sad for those that I've lost.
Nothing last forever,
so I think it ain't wise to rekindle those lost cause i had.
What ended should be left ended,
as it will never be the same as before.
Leaving them as sweet memories will be the best move.

I'm grateful to those who stick with me for these few months,
those guys and ladies who gave me the best offered decisions to make.

Especially you Sam.
Those emoing conversations we shared,
kinda bring back sweet yet angering memories.

Revival

Maybe now is not the right time,
u gave me signs along the way.
Maybe lord its all in your timing,
only when its the right time.

Give me the strength to be like him.

He's small
BUT
fast
strong
reliable.

Ashley Cole.


and have sucha beautiful wife. LOL

flashback.

Remember when we took the SPI tour you told me you love,
but now that you're fine,
you changed your mind,
I'm lost for words.
Remember the night we celebrated my birthday,
that was the night,
which make me decide,
to love you for life.